As a 26 year old woman I feel like I am in no mans land, I am at that funny age where half of my friends have marriages, houses and babies and bake delicious healthy food everyday, and the other half are out raving every weekend and 'popping a molly' or whatever synthetic drug is popular now.
The point is that I am completely in between the two categories, and sometimes it is absolutely terrifying. I have a feeling that I am not the only twenty-something girl in this situation, well I really hope I'm not!
I think the main issue I have personally is that I have a fear that my time is running out, I have only just started my career path and I am due to graduate uni next year at the age of 27. So then my brain goes wild thinking I only really have 6 or 7 career years before I need to think about stupid shit like my eggs running out and being an old mum, This sort of stuff shouldn't stress us out but most girls are plagued by it. Why is it that we have this huge burden while our male counterparts are free to do whatever job, hours, travelling they like without having this worry. I got told the other day that if I didn't have a baby soon that I would be an 'old mum' and this was by a friend.
And then the other issue is that I am going to be a fresh graduate at the age of 27, which obviously isn't old, but in the world of fashion journalism interns I feel like a dinosaur. And the awful truth is that it is all my own fault. I am the one who decided to go repping instead of go to uni, I am the one who let a boy make all of my decisions for 3 years and now I am incidentally living back at home with bloody terrible credit. I am the one who fucked around going from job to job trying to find a career I could do forever when it was literally in a book under my nose the whole time.
And like I said my worries are endless..... And that is where I realised, I am being a huuuuuuge brat! Here I am telling my woes to the world when really I don't have a single woe at all. I am healthy, I have an absolutely amazing family who let me back home after I completely screwed up, I am in love with a handsome man who I plan to trap forever (sneaky walk), and I have aspirations.
Time does not matter, I can be just as ruthless and willing as anyone else in the industry I want to work in. I can make my mark because I have the passion and I know I have the skill and talent. And I think that might be the hardest thing to admit, that we have talent, that we have nothing holding us back but our own fear and laziness. If you want something, you should go for it. We are so lucky today, this is not 100 years ago when women could not vote, we could not be doctors or lawyers, or journalists, we could not even wear shorts or a shorter skirt without being looked down on unlike now (thanks Coco).
Don't listen to the pressures of our society, do what you love, have babies whenever you want, follow the career you dream of. We only have one life and it is short. Be brave, be passionate, be kind, be wild, and be you, because nobody else can do it as well as you can.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
Marianne Wilson.
Peace and Love ✌🏻️
